Category Archives: Alcoholism and Recovery

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a little soul, pestered. April 11

I sometimes feel like a muttering idiot.  I cannot much tell the difference between what I am saying, doing, and what is typically called madness.  There are days the difficulty is so big I can’t even form the questions. What does Kansas City have to do with pilgrimage, I mean.  This is a ridiculous thing,

Generation, daily reflection April 11

Generation: because the act of writing about my alcoholism turns out to be the act of writing about my father’s alcoholism, and recovery from my addiction is actually a recovery from his. They say that.  That alcoholism is a family disease.  Give or take genetic tendencies, we are who we are because we are what

90 days, april 10

Looking back, I think I’d begun the process of the fourth step from the first few days.  Like my life was all contained in a one big box, and I took it in my hands, flipped it over so everything fell on the floor, and said here’s nothing.  What dust is kicked up.  What shattering

Fear of the fourth, daily reflection April 9.

I wanted to do the fourth.  I had a hunch – rather, knew as clear as two and two is four – it was my emotional mess that kept me an active alcoholic.  I knew that it was self-hate and deep shame that formed the way I lived;  anything like ‘better’ would have to radically